Logan's First 3 months

Well, where to begin? These past three months have been absolutely incredible- filled with love, learning, excitement and change. Taking on the role of Mommy has been the most challenging and the most amazing experience of my life. There really is no way to explain what these little lives do to us when they arrive, but I can say that our hearts are overflowing with love for our little Logan. He is absolutely perfect and has brought us so much joy. In his baby blessing, Jeff said Logan would be a source of peace and love for his family, and we have seen that from day one.
The day we came home from the hospital my mom came to stay for 5 days and Jeff went right back to work. That meant so much to me, and I'm so grateful to have those memories. My mom is everything I hope to be as a Mother, and I'm grateful for her loving guidance, confidence, and encouragement. I fell apart the day she left. I remember watching her drive away and then sitting on the couch sobbing, wondering now what? But I pulled myself together and learned that I could do it. In fact, I was thinking recently that I feel like I have finally found something that I feel I can be really good at. I have attempted a lot of things- sports, different school programs, hobbies- and never been too awesome, but I feel confident that I can be great at being a Mommy, and I love it.
I was scheduled to go back to work when Logan was three months old, but every time I thought about leaving him with someone else all day I fell apart. I just didn't feel right about it, even though we both knew it would be a major sacrifice- and make our budget a super tight one if I stayed home. So, practicing what I've been taught all my life I made a choice to give my notice and waited for that confirming feeling of comfort. I was a nervous wreck talking to my boss, but felt a huge weight lifted when I walked out of the office. Who knows what the future holds but right now, I know I am where I am supposed be. I have an amazing husband that works two jobs to allow that to happen and I don't take a single day for granted. I know I am lucky to even have that as an option and will soak it up while I can.
If I were really on top of things, I would have been posting about Logan each month, but he has kept me pretty busy. :) I have kept a hand written journal for him of our most special memories, but here is just a little peek at the last three moths:

First Month:

(Snuggling with Grandma for a minute before mealtime. I love this picture.)

(ONE MONTH OLD?!)

Second Month:

(Daddy blessed you on August 5th)

(Meeting Uncle Aaron)

(Cousin Chels came to stay and help for a week. It was just what this new Mommy needed. I miss you Chels.) 

(Two months old)

Third Month:

(Three months old)

A Few facts about Logan: 

- You LOVE when Daddy rubs your head. We count on that for instant smiles! 

- In the early stages of nursing you would often reach up and hold one of my fingers and pause to smile at me, making the frustrating days a little easier. 

- No one can get you to "talk" quite like Grammy Rice. You seem to know she is a wise lady, and I bet you two will have many good talks in the future. 

- You hate having a dirty diaper- and love to go in a fresh one. 

- Your back is ridiculously ticklish.

- You have an especially sweet personality. You LOVE to snuggle, have plenty coo's for us and a bottom lip that melts us.